From Kay’s Journal - 7.18.2007
I remember the birth of my first child, 35 years ago today. My husband said that I was rolling around in the bed in pain of labor. The hospital staff came in and gave me Demerol, “A little something to take the edge off of the pain”. At the last moments of labor, right at the moment of delivery, they masked me and gave me ether.
I think about that now, the ether that they gave me at the very end of “transition labor” put me completely unconscious. It made me completely miss the moment of great victory and birthing. The moment of “deliverance”, seeing the fruit of my labor, the birth of my child. I missed the greatest moment of joy because I was anesthesized to relieve the pain that I was in.
I just have to say that I don’t want to be anesthetized at the moment of any further birthing. I don’t ever again want to let the pain in this journey of laboring to bear fruit cause me to not be there for the birthing.
“Lord, give me strength to last through all of the pain so that I can enjoy the moment of reaping the blessing of my labor”.
Today I reminisce about the process, life, the joys mixed with the pain… the journey! It’s not over. I’m not ready to take any “pill” that will anesthetize me from the joy of seeing the birthing of God’s vision for me and my family. Natural and spiritual.
Lord, I welcome all “comers”. Pain, joy, struggle, peace, laboring and birthing, nurturing and growing and new beginnings.
Thank you Lord for Life today, all of it, everyone in my life and those that surround me!
Still true today!
Love to All
Kay
I remember the birth of my first child, 35 years ago today. My husband said that I was rolling around in the bed in pain of labor. The hospital staff came in and gave me Demerol, “A little something to take the edge off of the pain”. At the last moments of labor, right at the moment of delivery, they masked me and gave me ether.
I think about that now, the ether that they gave me at the very end of “transition labor” put me completely unconscious. It made me completely miss the moment of great victory and birthing. The moment of “deliverance”, seeing the fruit of my labor, the birth of my child. I missed the greatest moment of joy because I was anesthesized to relieve the pain that I was in.
I just have to say that I don’t want to be anesthetized at the moment of any further birthing. I don’t ever again want to let the pain in this journey of laboring to bear fruit cause me to not be there for the birthing.
“Lord, give me strength to last through all of the pain so that I can enjoy the moment of reaping the blessing of my labor”.
Today I reminisce about the process, life, the joys mixed with the pain… the journey! It’s not over. I’m not ready to take any “pill” that will anesthetize me from the joy of seeing the birthing of God’s vision for me and my family. Natural and spiritual.
Lord, I welcome all “comers”. Pain, joy, struggle, peace, laboring and birthing, nurturing and growing and new beginnings.
Thank you Lord for Life today, all of it, everyone in my life and those that surround me!
Still true today!
Love to All
Kay
Thanks Kay. Good word! Sometimes during this journey I want to say "wake me up when its over".
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